Sunday, March 30, 2008

#22. Transporting Life

"We're stangers, starting off on a journey. Never dreaming what we have to go through."

Many things happened. And I'm sure I'm not the only who's hurt because of it. People have their own different ways to think about things as well as trying to express themselves. You see onw person seeking attention by using the most hateful way you can imagine and you start saying things like, "What a bitch. Doesn't see know she look like a slut that way?"

You feel disgusted. You feel frustrated and angry hat such a person existed. But have you look at yourself? Before you start putting blames on others for their sole existence, take a look of yourself in the mirror. What do you see? A face loved and adored by everyone? A face that just attracts bulliers? A face that looks like you're going to kill yourself off that very moment? No... Look closer. I'm after all your reflection. I reflect what you have done, what you have accomplished and what crimes have you commited.

Think back and you'll know yourself. Don't ask around people about the faults you have done. It's just not right. And I doubt people will want to remember it again. Because it hurts you know? Don't you realised that already? we're trying to forget the sins we have commited. Our mind sealed it at the edge, long forgotten. But others knew. They always knew and will never forget what you done to them, in the past or in the present.

It doesn't matter who did it. All that matters is what done is done. No one could reverse it We're not time controllers you know. I'm sure eveyrone will like to reverse back and undo the things they did. Everyone does. Nobody's perfect. We're not created to be perfect. We're created to balance the things in life whther good and evil. So don't be envy of others when you see how loved and adored they're. don't hate people just because they did something wrong.

It's ironic that we humans recognized other people by their faults and not by their good. Humans are born that way so just be careful of what you have to say. We have different emotions at heart. One that can be inflamed easily by one simple word and one that can be softened by one more single word. We make things complicated. we love to see someone else suffer. see how sadistic we're?

I'm just feeling down lately. Arguments between friends and I'm sorry for those who got sandwiched in between. Staring at their posts and muttering words of apologies won't help much. I have nothing else to say in this matter. And I hope that last night talk was worth it and I'm happy that things work out in the end. And wished that it will remain that way, no matter what. Because if I don't like her, I would have cut off this friendship long time ago. Why wait until now?

So don't jump into conclusions just yet. People deserves chances and I'm willing to give. we have our own complaints. So yeah. Don't worry too much. We're friends after all. :3

http://www.play-asia.com/paOS-13-71-8x-77-6-49-en-15-togainu+no+chi-70-2jqq.html

I'm planning to get this and http://www.play-asia.com/paOS-13-71-8x-77-5-49-en-15-togainu+no+chi-70-2jqp.html

:3

For the sake to satisfy my sadistic pleasures. Fufufufufufufufu...



And oh boy oh boy! I'm planning to get this as well. I WANT THE OBLIVION KEYBLADE!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

#21. Loving...virtue?

I haven't been updating my to-do list nor have I been updating my fanfictions. I received a lot of death threats since last year but no. Not going to actually put an effort in listing everything out and replying them on the theme CONSIDERATE. I am a busy person. So whether I'm wasting my time watching sailor moon or disneys is none of your frigging business. But I doubt they care anyways. They bother authoress just for their viewing and reading pleasure to see two characters hump and grind each other..

Fans. Che.

Not that I'm not one. I am. But can't they at least be patient? I know I rarely updates but...you don't have to send me threats on castrating me or ripping me to pieces or threatened to actually PISS on me for breakfast!

Now that's just plain stupid and annoying. D:

I have the nerve to quit fanfiction if you GUYS DON'T STOP IT. yeah. they freaking stalk me. That's why I'm yelling my lungs out here. Some were understanding though but I always sensed there's some hidden meanings in their statement. Creepy. And downright....creepy. Can't find another word to describe that.

I have been playing around with my blue wig. It needs a new styling and a new coloring, if that's even possible. The fringes need to be longer at the left side or else it won't be Minato at all. D: My mom totally freak out when she a mop of blue floating around the living room. It was hilarious!! Not to mention it was dark too so she can't really see me in my pokemon pyjamas.

Heh. Wonders of life.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

#20. Stepping Stones



So I haven't actually bring myself to share these godly pictures of Leon and Cloud's wedding. Roxas was the bridesmaid and Axel was the best man. And since the best man needed the best wife. It wasn't actually crucial for the best wife to hit off with the best man. Besides, the wedding still needs to painfully go on without Cloud trying to pounce on to us, the sad wedding planners, for making him wear a DRESS. Yes, you heard me.

A freaking dress. And still looking as hot and delicious as always, one hunky Squall Leonhart mused.

It wasn't technically his fault that only after one day of meeting will lead them to actually have sex. And if wonders never ceased, the stoic blonde has reluctantly agreed to it. Although the constant nagging at his ears by his best friend, Zack Fair was seriously starting to get onto his nerves.

"I SWAER SPIKE! HE WILL SWALLOW YOU WHOLE! But I'm sure sephy won't mind...so go ahead and do it big guy! I can't believe my baby is all grown up!" The suppossedly dead man looked dramatically smitten as he used his finger to rub away a fake tear. But what made Cloud thought that he was severely betrayed not only by Zack but by another supposedly dead girl who was actually supposed to stop Zack and control him instead of supporting said with a gunblade by cheering out a way to shoot his loot.

And it definitely was most creepy when another couple began to brew. And Roxas after giving Axel a punch in the face for molesting him, decided to give in after all to the red-head's fantasy.

And they all lived happily ever after.

The end....NOT.

ROFL. Can't believe I wrote that.

The opening ceremony where you see that a skull is the great almight priest.



Warning: Tried to put Roxy in a dress but failed miserably due to his trashing. And we get a clear view of the back of the....priest's head?


Our loving beloved couple. *snickers*



Roxas's side is Cloud's side of the family. Who knows cute teddies can actually give birth to such handsome young men. And Axel's side is Leon's side of the family.


And so they danced. LOL

I knew me and my friend were on crack. But I never thought it would be this bad.

#19. Crucify TnC

I changed my header from P3 into Togainu no Chi goodness and I'm happy at the way it turned out. Banners made by me. CG scans....I forgot where....since it's long forgotten in my folder. And I changed my profile banner as well. I'm going to upload some TNC moodthemes also. But probably next time since am so frigging lazy. XD

Oh and on a side note:



SHIKI/AKIRA PWNZ! @_@

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

#18. Spam-a-licious

I'm so into the Togainu no Chi fandom right now. I downloaded the anthologies. And the files are fricking HUGE. Mkae that nearly 80mb PER VOLUME. And there's nine volume altogether. I'm in deep shit. But there's plenty of Shiki/Akira to go around. And I went to aarinfantasy and fished out almost all of the Shiki/Akira hot goodness I can find and I found myself only happy with two of them.

Let's just say that they're quick to the point. Heh.

So I went into a downloading frenzy today. So what? I'm even tempted to purchase the manga...I downloaded volume 1 and volume 2. the ones that were released by BS-Log. Or something like that and it was ACTUALLY GORGEUS. Love the art and everything. The only thing that irked me is the slowness of the scenes. What? It took Akira one volume to meet Shiki!! How messed up is that?

I compared it with the ones by ZERO. OMG. Two freaking chapters?! Although their meeting was kinda short. But meh. Better than nothing. And damn them for putting it on hold after that because Biblios decided to go bankrupt just after Akira met Shiki.

I found a part from my collection of djs which i think is a parody of ending 3 with Shiki shown after Akira decided to push himself all out and sleep with other guys whenever Shikis not there. It's funny though. HAH. XD And Shiki was like killing off whoever slept with Akira. Poor guys. One night of passionate sex and they went poof the next day.


So now I'm off to downloading the PC version of the game. Still haven't finish enzai but meh. Durer's smexy ending was enough to make me smile.

And I absolutely cannot wait for the PS2 version to be released this may! Take that, homophobes

Monday, March 24, 2008

#17. Crucial Moment

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Persona_4

OMG. I JUST SAW THIS. D:

#16. Thoughts

I have been thinking a lot lately. Maybe too much or maybe it is just me that's been having headaches. I have a lot of things that I wanted to do but everytime I think of that, my head burns. Readily. Although I'm used to all the pains my head have been giving me. I think I'm still okay with it. I think...

It feels like time is getting shorter and shorter. And the to-do list is getting longer and longer. So much to do and so little time.  How can one not panic? Whenever my friends or me mention about what we're going to do after A Levels is like a dream so far away. Hell, I don't even know if I'm going to pass the biggest exam of my life. My career and future life depends on it. And whether I get the money depends on it as well.

Yep. Life is scary and full of suspense but when you think back about it, maybe it's just there to scare you after all. bloody life.

I feel like I'm still a baby but I really like being babied. Reminds me of the fact that i'm still a child in my mom's heart although I have been dying to reach 18. But hey! I'm 18 now.

I have been future planning alot. Like um..cosplay for instance. Here's what I did like to do in the future.

  • Cosplay as Ichijo from Vampire Knight
  • Cosplay as Kyoya Ootori from Ouran High
  • Try doing Tamaki for instance
  • Go to Japan
  • Go travel aorund the world
  • A land full of doujins
  • Walk around in lolita outfits
  • Unique dressing of Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland
  • Finally try to get around in cosplaying as Rukia
  • HINAMORI!
  • Get high paid job
  • Go university or study abroad!
  • MUST GO VISUAL KEI. Jackie say she can picture me in VK outfit. Cool huh.
  • Bring my parents and have fun overseas.
  • Meet Alice Nine and Gazette.
  • Hug Miyavi
  • And poke Gackt's face mentioning how adorable he is.
  • Sue the creators of perosona Trinity Soul. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE FREAKING EVOKERS?! FDAMMIT.
  • Open the eyes of Brunei by actually coming out with the most coolest outfit
  • Pull Mickey's tail.
And a lot more....... The list goes on and on.

Well, you get my point.

Friday, March 21, 2008

#15. Longitudinal

Have been busy lately. yeah. Too busy to even make out some time to actually update and everything. So before anyone tries to friend cut me? just don't. I swear I'll be nice and eevrything. Just need to get my schedule all fix up. You know, eveyrtime I start thinking about the huge exam I will be having in May always gives me the headache, not to mention a couple of painful cramps. =.= But then my mom tells me to take it easy but how am I supposed to take it easy with her nagging about my lack of studying for 24/7?!

Seriously, I need a break. More peace and definitely more QUIET before I completely die, rot or even decomposed to death. If worst comes to worst, i will have to start writing my will and persuade my friends to try and bury everything I need like my stack of gay comics. yeah. That will make the journey to after life more comfortable. Really.

And the hell with animax. Keeps on showing cardcaptor sakura like every 30 minutes?! I mean what the tut. And eveyrthing is repeated just so you know so I have been watching the same back-toback episodes for like everytime. I mean come on. THE RAWS ARE BETTER THAN THE DUBS. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST UNDERSTAND TAHT POINT AND STOP LICENSING (SP?) ANY POPULAR ANIMES THEY SEE?! I need a break. That much being said.

Dubs lack emotion. And they sound like they have a pole shoved up their ass. Point taken. When they tried to say their names. They sound like fish on sticks. Floppy. Another point taken. If they need some quality english voice actors. TRAIN THEM. Gods. =.= No offnese to DUB fans. But they're 100% terrible. Hate is such a strong word to use but that doesn't mean i'm not abusing it.

We have a new member of the family. Actually she belongs to my cousin but we have been taking acre of her. Born during CNY and just brought her home two days ago and sweeet. Such a cute body. They say she's a mix breed of a "Chi Wa Wa" and a terrier. Thus, the fluffy fur. Here's a picture of him hiding under the chair I'm currently in. Sad puppy. lol the name's burger but man wish I can call her Patchi.



And I'm still thinking either to do Tamaki or Kyoya. Here's my face. so start voting now. Pick a character who suits me. KYOYA OR TAMAKI. thank you. XD




>.< I feel so weird. Tamaki or Kyoya? Vote now ne~ :3



Thursday, March 13, 2008

#14. =.=

I got lots of pictures to share seriously. Maybe too much but photobucket keeps on dying on me. Pictures like me and my friends going crazy, Pictures of Axel and Roxas's wedding. Picture of Axel humping Roxas. Cloud in a bloody wedding dress and Leon looking as awesoome as ever. Him carrying Cloud bridal style~

>wOh and KYAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY GAZETTE ARRIVED!!!

Nuff said.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

#13. Dear...screw?!

I'm sorry for not commenting much on your posts, FRIENDS. But that doesn't mean i don't care. I DO CARE!! D: It's just that I don't have much time in commenting, let alone posting but I still try to keep you all entertain. No? :D

I just sweared in front of my father. Can you believe that? Wait... I JUST FREAKING SWEARED IN FRONT OF MY FATHER. Oh shit. That sounds bad, doesn't it?

It IS bad.

The worst thing is my dad didn't say anything but just walk off. Maybe trying to find a rotan or something so he can abuse me till I die and rot in hell.

That's the WORST THING that can possibly happen to me. D: Faggot. But strangely, he did nothing but jst continue to wtach TV like nothing happen. Strange. Must be the wonders of being 18.

Now I'm off to discover more wonders in legality. 8D

Thursday, March 6, 2008

#12. Prat

So this is basically what the conversation between my mom and me was when I got back from school.

[IN THE CAR]

Me: Ma, now I'm legal, would you let me watch those things?
Mom: What?
Me: PORN.
Mom: D:!!!!!!!!!!!!

=car swerves dramatically=

Me: WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?
Mom: =.= Don't EVER EVER do that again.
Me: lol


So that's basically what happened. porn just scares the shit out of people.

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. I'M NOW LEGAL. :D

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

#11. flaunting is contagious

So DON'T FLAUNT.

>D

I feel so retarded today. Probably am lacking in my sleep because I have to worry about this and that. I'm stealing some surveys that I did at GJ. And who cares. I'm redoing them again! It's a 3 in ONE survey. Long. So prepare yourselves.

1; Favorite pairing, canon or not?
Ans: Axel/Roxas :D Cause it's just so damn freaking obvious. Although still favouring Leon/Cloud hot smut.

2; Kingdom Hearts or Final Fantasy. Which is better?
Ans: I'll just stick to KH because it's obvious. Sora just wants to be with riku so badly that he kneels. Andddd....Axel just love Roxas too much to have babies with him. Go cupid!

3; Where did you get your lj name from? XD
The gay guy who loves Haseo in Hack GU. I send most of the greeting cards to him so trust me, he's OBSESSED with Haseo. :X

4; Favorite Kingdom Hearts character?
Axel. Got it memorized? XD

5; Aaaand favorite food?
Chcolates cause they make my mind crack.

6. Spell your name without an E,S,H,I,M,A:
JLYN. Owh Gawd. Don't make me say that again! >D

7. Are you available?
If you want to court me, press 1. If you want to say Roxas is pregnant, press 2. If...

8.What’s your favorite number?
Six. Cause it's my birthday~ It's my brithday~

8. Favorite color?
Blue, silver and the pretty colors of the rainbow~ =3= Oh shit, I DID NOT JUST WRITE THAT. D:

9. What are you listening to?
Guren by Gazette again. Still wondering when the postman will come. >_> Fucking posts.

10. Are you happy with your life right now?
Yes and No. Simple as that.

11. What was/is your favorite subject in school?
None because I cannot excape anymore from them. T.T

12. Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/AE?
......?

13. How do you make money?
selling stuffs online.

14. Are you outgoing?
You just stabbed my heart.

15. One word to describe you?
Dense and I have to say am dang proud of it.

16. Do you own big sunglasses?
Want one though. They are SO coool.

17. Where do you wish you were right now?
Drwoning in yaoi land so don't you dare save me from it.

18. What should you be doing right now?
My home work. But my dog ate them. =D

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: With a chewing gum, yes.
Can you do a cart wheel?: No.
Can you touch your toes?: Wait..let me try. OMG! I LOSE WEIGHT!!! :0
Can you whistle?: Using a whistle. That's how. >D
Can you wiggle your ears?: Nope.
Can you wiggle your nose?: No again...
Can you roll your tongue?: Finally...a YES! I had fun doing that to annoy my sisters. XD

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? Yep. But some stupid person won't let me take biology. >_> *mutters curses*
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? I would rather just wtach the whole show.

THE DO'S:
Do you believe in God?: Only when I'm suffering from constipation.
Do you know how to swim?: No but I nearly drown myself once.
Do you like roller coasters?: ZOMFG. YOU LIT UP MY HEART!
Do you own a bike?: No. Too scared.
Do you think you could be on those reality shows?: I'll laugh my ass off. Hahah. Ain't funny.

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run through your family?: Nope.
Does your car get good gas mileage?: No car, no talk.
Does your family have family picnics?: No.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yeah. It's fun!
Have you ever gone fishing?: Been there. Done that. Boring as hell. :o

THE HOWS:
How did you find out about Myspace?: uh. It just pop up out of nowhere.
How many of your friends on it have you seen?: No...I think.
How much money do you have on you right now?: It's getting thinner and thinner.....and thinner. D: OH NOES. AM BROKE.

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?: Sister.
Last thing you said out loud?: "Tut you."
Last thing someone said to you?: "It's a three! No, it's a four! And omg! It's an ass!!"

----COPY DIRECTLY FROM GJ---- (Don't feel like changing it.)

10 things people/strangers couldn't guess just looking at you:
1. I'm a yaoi fan.
2. I flunked at my grades.
3. I'm not a bookworm.
4. I actually wear glasses.
5. Happy-go-lucky? :o
6. I write fanfictions.
7. I draw nicely?
8. I'm still glued to classics.
9. I love my socks.
10. I'm a carnivore.

9 things you want to do before you die:
1. Kick the kid next door for ruining my kite.
2. Tell my mom I love her and my dad, I love him too.
3. Abuse my ps2 even more.
4. Conquer the world. Hell yeah!
5. Try cosplaying as Minato.
6. Burn all my stuffs so they go with me to hell OR heaven.
7. Strangle my pet cat for eating my chocolate.
8. Dance around the school while singing "BYE BYE SCHOOL! HELLO HELL!"
9. Travelling. Always wanted to travel around the world.

8 things you say everyday:
1. Holy shit.
2. Fuck off.
3. Don't know and I don't care.
4. Yeah right...
5. HOORAY!
6. Bugger.
7. Idiot.
8. Hiya!

7 things you hate:
1. Homophobes.
2. Creepy crawlies.
3. Backstabbers.
4. Vegetables.
5. School.
6. Homeworks and essays.
7. Deadlines.

6 things you love:
1. K/J music.
2. EVERYONE/CLOUD.
3. Sweets.
4. Friends.
5. Fanfictions.
6. Drawing!

5 people you look up to:
1. Mother cat.
2. Lindsay.
3. Shika
4. Nis
5. My mother.

4 places you want to visit:
1. Japan
2. Korea
3. USA
4. Canada
5. England

3 things you could do without:
1. Deadlines.
2. Having to see my parents quarrel.
3. My sister's bad imitation of Rihanna.

2 things you never want to do:
1. Dance naked.
2. Having to part with my old pillow. It stinks of me but yeah

1 person who has changed your life:
1. Shika

Monday, March 3, 2008

#10. Don't play with kunais. They aren't made of metal but they still sting.

I made some new friends. :D HARLO NEW BUDDIES! I really hope we can get along with ecah other since my post on
 was kinda scary...in a way. I hope I didn't really scared anyone of you. I was eating chocolates at that time so yeah. Heh. MUNCH.

Let's see now. MY FRIEND GOT SICK. D: It wasn't contagious BUT I'M STILL NOT YET IMMUNE TO IT. Although the part of her husky and sexy voice did amuse me a little BUT I'M NOT LESBIAN. Although stalking gay guys are my priorities.  Still, I'll poke fun of it again tomorrow. Maybe this time, I'll make her sound like a dead frog. CROAK. 8D

I knocked my head just now on the door while my uncle was trying to pinch my ears for pulling his nose. >D It was an awesome experience. You just pull it like that and it went back to its original size. Like those electronic toys. PULL the strings and it screams DADA. He didn't do that though so I got a bruised head in the end.

Stupid mind of mine. D<

Sunday, March 2, 2008

#9. Revolution



I have been thinking a lot lately on certain things and of course, trying to restrict the changes in my wallet. It has becoming a lot thinner lately. This shows that I have been neglecting its daily necessities. Not only that, I haven't even been feeding it properly. Last year, it was $1 per day but now, well let's just say that it diminished into nothing. D:

I saw my godbrother online yesterday night and asked him to get me the earphones. He said he will try but cannot gurantee anything. The word try is enough. If he can't get it, I'm still okay but I doubt that it will look nice without the crappy earphones. Am happy in a way. Besides, he just bought himself a mobile phone for RM600. Haha. Go him!! He told me not to tell his parents. Not that I would. Seriously. >D

After a while of thinking, I decided to keep my journal 99.9% OPEN TO THE PUBLIC with  0.1%  private or for friends only. That's okay ne? It's better than 50% public and 50% friends. That's just so wrong.

I went out shopping with Pit Ching the other day. We ate dim sum and oh shit, kolo mee with Char Siew chicken!!! Yummy but kind of expensive though. I bought a ribbon for like 2m and the 4m cloth for $28 bucks? And Nadiah helped me buy a wig. Haha. Thank you, scandal. Anyways, me and Pit Ching talk and fool around and more talking until it comes to the cosplay thingy.

She suddenly said she wanted to create a cosplay club and I mean just wow. Haha. Seriously, wow. We're waiting for Nad to finsih her presentation so we can use it for monday morning. >D Hopefully, she remembers. If everything goes well, we'll present it straight on that day! i'll remind her again later. We're sending our outfits to the tailor next week. PC said have to wait until the guy come back from China or something like that. But then, we're also opening a cosplay blog to promote cosplay for Brunei.

Someone need to start something you know. who knows, maybe in ten years time, Brunei street will evolve into a Harajuku street? Who knows! Anything can happen. We even found a place in Yayasan that looks great with persona 3 cosplay! >D  A fountain and great landscape. And it's in the middle of the shopping complex just like Paulonia (sp?) Mall!! 

>D Meh.