#329. Of Magazines and Doodles

So I have been deliberately fucked. Last night was supposed to be studying. Well, I DID study but uh, I got distracted in the end orz. In the end, I couldn't sleep at all last night. Was wide awake till 4.30am. Probably cause I was spamming my wall, spending more time on thinking whether to get the hoodie from Republic or not. gg :( I probably won't be blogging much and I very much intended to actually shipped over my old blog posts to here.

Hopefully, I can get that done before the winter holidays which is in two weeks time! :DDD

And also! I got myself a PSP. OMG. I KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE LIKE GONNA SAY. FINALLY. Hahahaha! Yeap. Finally I got myself a PSP orz. It's not here yet though. Should be here by next week? :D

Isn't it so effing gorgeous? Got the mystic silver bundle for 99 pounds. So much for trying to actually save gg. Once I have this, I can finally play all the games I have been waiting out on lol! And for my future games as well which will be in Brunei. *is ecstatic* Gonna start leeching from chabo they all soon! Just you all wait!

So I went to Tesco the other day and picked up these two babies. To be honest, I'm not really the type for magazines unless they have some freebies in it. hahahaa. The Nintendo one has like a free calendar so I just went ahead with it. At least, they don't rip me off on the price! And the Empire? Well, it IS Batman after all and their coverage wasn't actually much per say. Though they did speculate a lot about the characters in the movie.

I can't wait for July 20th to be here so fast!

I also seriously need to stop doodling in class. I have problems concentrating nowadays. I think I have gotten from being tolerable to intolerable orz. I have become lazier and lazier. I need to pick my groove up sooner or later. I just hope it will be soon. :(

I know I kinda promise to talk more on the TMGS game. Once there's more news about it, I will be sure to post them soon. :) Also, I realized I haven't post anything about MCM yet. gg

#321. Yatta!

Finished. :)

#320. So I'm running around in circles...

Can't seem to get anything done. T_T

#308. So I said...

...life couldn't be anymore better.

I have two reports. One due tomorrow and another one due on Monday. I don't really have to worry much about the Monday once since the Professor gave us some feedback on our presentation. I think we did good. Just need to find out what more is there to add to make the work better and more...should I say, full.

I still haven't get myself started on the one due tomorrow. Can I write it in bullet points instead? Hahhahaa. Didn't do much in class today also. Was chitchatting most of the time.

BTW!

I'M GOING TO THE FUCKING MCM EXPO + COMIC-CON!!!! WOOTS!!!

SNWHDYDYEGDYEGDUEGDUEGDUEGDSHADGD!!!!

I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! This will my very convention. I am so happy I decided to take HCI in the end cause I get to meet wonderful people like Sasha and Owain!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

So excited!! I promised I will try to get as many pictures as possible but uh, don't sweat on it since I will be too busy looking around and buying stuffs. I need to limit my purchase to 100 pounds for that day. Definitely do not want to starve for the rest of the month. Aha.

And has anyone seen the Avenger's trailer?

I am so excited for it also. MISTRESSANDMOE Loki needs some love!!





8D Awesome isn't it? Love the part where Loki chucked Tony out like that. I really love Loki. He's too adorable!

I swear Batman stuffs are trying to kill me. First it was HT, now it's Squeenix's turn to make me squeal. THEY ARE OH SO GORGEOUS. 

Definitely want to preorder Batman's soon enough!

#306. Dejected

Am angry.

Like super angry.

At no one in particular.

Just very pissed off at myself. 

UGH. 

I am so scared I won't be able to do the project on my own. I am more comfortable if I do it with someone else...who will want me to join their group. :(

But the thing is...no one wants me in their group. Perhaps it's because am not that close with them. I mean, heck, we just met or we never met buthey who knows they just saw some pictures and let's all leave out the asian bitch or something.

Hahhahaa. 

Sorry. I shouldn't think badly about the people who I never talked with. It's just so unkind of me. I can't help it though...It hurts. In a way. I want to score in this project. I want to make them all proud of me.

I guess I can't. Maybe I should have just gone for internship and stay in Brunei or something. Least that will make my life less miserable. :(

I am not that worried about studies. I know I can do it if I put my mind to it. But the project is just killing me slowly. Maybe I should have said screw the diploma. I just want my credits. But noooo, I just have to say I want a diploma. 

To be honest, I really really really want the diploma. A lot. 

But I wanna experience working in a group. I wanna experience doing something worthwhile. I wanna experience something different. I don't wanna stay coop up in my room all day long trying to code something on my own. 

I don't wanna. :(

Please let me have a group. Please. 

So many bad things happened to me already. Being left out in discussions, being the only one who is different, having not much friends, being rejected by a group, having my uncle passed away... It's just too much to bear. 

I may not be an academically good student but I can try. I will try. 

So why can't anyone give me a chance in proving myself?

I may not be skilled in something but I honestly can learn. I am willing to learn. Just gimme a chance...

Please...?

#302. MY BODY IS READY

I am so worried I won't be able to find a group later.

Please let me join a good group! Please!! >.<